Feeling antsy...

I don't even really know what the word antsy means - I'm thinking fidgety.
I feel restless with a side order of nervous....yet oddly also inspired. 

I've been watching a reality show to determine "The Next Big Artist in NYC"....(yes my tongue is firmly planted in my cheek and my eyes are rolled...). I accept the judicious editing and manufactured tensions but occasionally I am actually inspired. I know, odd, eh?

There's a fair degree of internal energy swirling and twirling inside me. I've been flying so high these last few days on a painting binge and tonight I had a crash and burn. Some of this my last series has been wildly successful in my eyes but one in particular is like a parasite just under my skin - aaaarrrggghhhh!

So, what do I do? I've put it aside, grabbed a glass of wine and am watching trash tv. Sorry, did you think there was going to be some bright spark of insight? Oh, god no.